It has generally been a tough week, and I feel like I need to write about it.
On Wednesday, a namesake friend of mine lost her battle to cancer after many years of struggling. While I knew it was coming, and so knew everyone else, it's still unbearable how you can never be prepared for such news. It helps to know that her immediate family and boyfriend were there when she finally let go and of course in hospital conditions they've made sure her passing is as painless as it can be. What also helps is that we had many mutual friends that are all equally sad and at loss of belief that she's no longer with us. Some time ago she even formed a FB conversation with all of her dearest friends, where she kept us all up to date with her condition and where we would cheer her on.
While it burdens me, it doesn't literally stress me out as schoolwork et cetera does, but I feel a little slowed down. I'd want nothing more at the moment than to gather our old group of friends together and just talk. We're now scattered all over the country, and while I'm not certain of my attendance in the funeral, I'd hope to meet people there or otherwise.
As with the other friends in our group, I didn't get to see my namesake too often. I would pay visits during my trips to her town, and even if they were short, I value them even more now than I did before. She fought for so long and with such passion for life that it more often than not put all our little problems into true perspective.
My thoughts go out to her family and loving boyfriend.
"With rosemary green and bright
You're not forgotten, eternal night
Can't fade your memory, dim your light
You've made a difference, you've won your fight"
Aside from sad truths of life, I'll also tell what I've been up to, artwise, since art is the best tool of escapism and giving yourself the time to come to terms with everything heavy happening around you.
I currently feel like I am overflowing with stress caused by my photography course at school. It's definitely not my strongest art related field, but you can expect me to upload all 30 artsyfartsy photos here, as we must publish them somewhere as a part of the course.
Yes, 30 photos in one month, and this course is also supposed to contain photo editing. Unfortunately our teacher isn't that much into photomanipulation, so either you take brilliant art photos at once or learn to handle Photoshop or other softwares to fix them more into your liking. I'm not good at either, so we'll see what happens. I'm trying to combine some things of my intrest from other types of art into this project and see how it goes.
What eases my mind is that I've been asking my friends to help me out with this, and they've been most cooperative and excited to work as my models. After finishing some video shooting practices (which also, strangely enough, is a part of this course) I should get to scheduling and sending those out to my fabulous people.
What my theme for those 30 photos will be? That'll remain a secret until then!